Patience is a Virtue

I ALWAYS (for the most part at least) act off of instinct. If I had some type of patience with myself I'd probably be normal. But who wants to be normal...I wouldn't have anything to blog about lol. But anyways I had another self-check today that sometimes I should just shut the hell up, sit back and wait. But, I'm so impatient it will never work. I'm spoiled and I can openly admit. I always get what I want within context of course. I'm not a rich brat or anything (far from it) but my parents make sure I have whatever I want. SO I grew up with this mentality and inherited that get it by any means necessary mentality. I love it cause I always end up happy but of course it comes attached with undue stress. Would that be a balance? I think so! I just have to take yoga or something to keep me grounded. GREAT!!
So in the end I didn't get played I just had to be patient and guess what...HONEST...and I got what I wanted. I hope it's what I wanted!! You never know with me though. I'm really going to write a book when I get older. The world needs to know my inner struggles...cause I know there's someone out there who thinks just like me they just haven't realized it haha.

*Update*
I finished my New Years outfit..fierce...I love it!!! You'll love it too...pics soon haha!!

HANGOVER!!!

You know how you can feel a hangover coming!! I hate that shit...before you drift off into that deep, drunk, I'm not waking up for a while sleep you know your gonna wake up with a stomachache. So maybe if I DON'T go to sleep I won't have a hangover. Did you ever think about that lol. I'm trying it...prolly won't work. I've been listening to music...chatting on facebook 5 a.m. in the morning lol, and online shopping. What am I going to do with my life. I'm really stressed world. I mask it with little minute problems. Honestly, I do when I really think about it. Guys stress me obviously (the last blog) but I have to make a couple of serious decisions to make in the next couple of weeks and I am really scared. I don't want to make the wrong decision. Like this is my future. Why can't it just make sense. For once, can Jasmine's life just flow coherently without fuck-ups and setbacks (just once please)!!!

It Was Going to Happen Sooner or Later!!

It happened!!!! I got played. I'm typing right now after two full cups of absolute and orange juice. I'm feeling some type of way right now. (Let me just tell you these first two lines took 5 minutes to type because I'm fucked up lol) Buy anyway...I kept telling myself don't get emotionally attached..do you and be HEARTLESS!! Kanye spoke to me this semester on some real shit lol!!! But HE got through...Man got through. The one that I really liked...the one that I wanted to go with without the whole marriage attachment (if you've been reading my blog you will know what I'm talking about). But, I spoke my mind finally, and was completely honest. AND HE TOLD ME THE TRUTH!!! He said we should just be friends lol. That shit fucked with my mind because I didn't want to hear it lol. (I put lol to lighten up the situation)I told him I wasn't going to keep bothering him because I really hate looking beat but fuck I really liked the nigga!!! Like I didn't love him...I liked him and that's coming a long way from where I was a couple of months ago. So I'm speaking my mind...I'm pissed as hell...I'm hurt...I'm venting. But I can't let myself stay on it for long. Why?! Cause I'll dwell on it too long and my complexes will come out lol. So I'll just keep venting to my blog and my friends and move on. Besides I'm a G!!! I take what life gives me and keep it moving!! (Haha once again I'm venting...I really don't want to move on but the single lady inside is screaming so move on I must!!)

*New Years is approaching watch out...cause I have my outfit ready and it's fierce!!!* See you soon!!!

Spelman...thy name we praise!!!

I've been dealing with this dilemma for the past couple of months now...and now it's turned into a life or death situation. Not really lol...but a serious matter nonetheless. I MIGHT NOT BE GOING BACK TO SPELMAN NEXT SEMESTER!!! Horrible I tell ya. I'm really sad about it...kinda...I'm so confused...all these emotions and feelings got a girl completely stressed. Like I love Spelman. I LOVE SPELMAN!!! Ask anyone around me I might get annoyed every now and then but, I'm graduating from that school. Walking through the arch and everything lol. My daughters are going to Spelman the whole enchilada. Why you ask? Why is that serious? Cause I perceived it in my head already...that 's why dammit. But anyway, I'm blaming it on Bush, the financial situation regarding school has taken a toll on my college matriculation. I watched numerous friends and heard stories all semester of people going home because loans got dropped, jobs were lost, and all that horrible stuff. FUCK YOU BUSH!!! Then it hit me...OMG!!! I'm taking it like a G tho...I'm a ride it out. Most likely I'll finish my core classes at a county school...then get back on track junior year in the A. Part of me is actually a little happy I get to stay home...I get really homesick out of nowhere haha. But, I can already see by March I'm a be pissed at the world cause I want to go back. However, I must not dally or fuss because I'm a woman on a mission, and I can't let a little detour hold me back.

Good Times

Hope everyonehad a wonderful Christmas. I DID!!! This was my first Christmas in a long time that I haven't had a special someone...and I found out that family will gladly replace and surpass the feeling you get on Christmas. I have come to the conclusion that my family is the shit. Haha!! Really tho...I can talk to them about anything. We drink together, smoke together (people would probably not agree with that but its cool lol), laugh together, and hold nothing back. Yesterday was a prime example!!
But let me say, we are not a bunch of bums lol. I was rereading what I wrote and that can sound pretty deceiving. We all have jobs, make our money, stay on our grind, and make shit happen lol. Don't sleep on it. Thanks!!
Jumping ot another topic however, with this new found me I have been safely putting myself out on the line when it comes to guys. I had a conversation with Man last night and I said some things that will probably spark a heated discussion later on in the near future. I'm trying to stay level-headed in the situation and not get caught up but I'm starting to like him and my emotions are kind of acting all wacky. I hate this shit honestly. Like all the butterflies and that good stuff have faded lol...a sign that a girl has passed the infatuation stage haha. But, I'm approaching this situation with precaution...WHY...because I refuse to get played and I told him that. Was I wrong? I don't think so, I was being completely honest. We'll see what happens?!?! Anywho...New Years is coming up I'm not making any resolutions for the first time...I'm starting today. I'm just going to continue being me...YAY...I don't think I will fail at this one...and this will be the first resolution I follow through with!!! Go me!!!

I took a picture of my new haircut (with the extensions of course lol) and this is how it came out!! You like!!

Well if you did sorry, but it's gone, after alot of this


and this lol...

I had to take it out. DAMNATION!!!

Ahhh...Snow!!!

It's snowing!!! I must admit it feels good to wake up and see a perfectly clean white blanket of snow outside. Then it all goes downhill when you have to get out of bed, and clean off your car to go pick up your little siblings because school let out early. WTF!!! But I did it and I'm home and bored because why...snow prohibits you from moving around freely. What is there to do when it snows?
I've decided to don snow as an oxymoron; it's pretty as hell and makes you feel all warm and fuzzy when your inside a house, but when you go outside it becomes the spawn of Satan. GREAT!!! So I shall stay inside.
I'll probably have twelve more blogs up because if it. I also will be constantly reminded that my camera is broke and I am a lost soul without it. SInce I've been home there have been about twenty occassions for me to take pictures...but I didn't...because I'm cameraless. I got a new haircut and stuff...couldn't even post that. Life sucks!! Good thing Chrsitmas is around the corner. Now I can get the pink camera I've always wanted lol. Good shit!!!

Honestly Speaking

I'm watching Freedom Writer's right now...and I love the feeling I get from watching it. I absolutely love movies that touch a certain spot in my body that reminds me that I have a purpose in life. Deep down inside I have a strong urge to truly promote change in the world. I am overly sensitive about people and their situations in life. Although I may come off as a bitch; I know I do sometimes, but I have one of the biggest hearts in the world. That's why I get hurt so easily. But yeah, this movie is spectacular in my eyes. Hilary Swank epitomizes what I want to do in life. I love children, and I love helping people, it is my absolute passion in life. I mean, I have my big career goals; Doctorate in psychology, owning my own psychology practice, event planning and all that fun stuff. But, I know deep down inside if I only got my Master's and taught students in a classroom and caused change I'd be satisfied with life. Yeah, I like money, I love shopping, but for some reason I don't go to bed as happy after I've shopped all day compared to when I volunteered with children, and made someone smile who forgot what it felt like. It's such an exhilarating feeling!!
Due to unforeseen circumstances however; too many drunken nights, busy days trying to create a life fit for a college student, chasing unwanted love, and running away from a love I couldn't handle anymore I kind of lost my vision. College is so weird..like you're there to do what you want yet you get sidetracked and your vision gets altered. I plan on staying on track though. I'm starting y being a mentor next semester. I feel if I keep myself surrounded by my goals I won't stray away from it. Great start Jasmine!!!
And as for the earlier post today I'm too pretty to be bitter. I know deep down inside I'm going to RUN INTO the person I should be with. So, once again I'm not looking, just living and learning. Come find me...later on in life!!!

I Should've Cheated

I hate how shit always comes up out of the blue and fucks up how far you've come from getting over a situation. I have come so far in getting over the fact that my ex cheated on me. My emotions are strong, persistent, but also very fragile. I was fucked up over the situation.
He cheated the summer before we got to college, I found out the end of the first semester, and we broke up the beginning of our sophomore year. I realized today I'm still not over it. I'm actually really bitter about it in a secretive way. No one would ever realize that they hurt, but I'm human and in fact get hurt a lot, and I'm starting to become more open about it.
So how do I feel? Honestly, speaking if I ever ran into any of the GIRLS...yes girls...I will still fight them. Not because they are at fault which they weren't because they didn't know about me until he was about to conveniently leave them and be with me, but because it will make me feel better, and in my eyes I am the only person that matters in the situation. I fought him already, maced him actually, and I'm still pissed. Why? The girls are still in the picture. Even though I don't know to what extent it still hurts like shit.
Being the psych major I am I know why which makes it a little easier for me to cope with. I had, have, always will have trust issues. I just do, that guard that everyone puts up to keep from getting hurt, my shit is impenetrable. But he got through. How I have absolutely no idea, but I will find out lol. Then he fucked me up. (I curse a lot when I'm speaking of real, true feelings about myself...I apologize if your offended) I've been cheated on before...which honestly I just don't understand...like I really don't...and up until now I haven't come up with any possible explanation but greed...absurd. I'm venting now...listen if you want. =) But really, I cook, I'm clean, never been pregnant, no STD's (nor have I ever had one), I'm pretty, smart, confident, easy to talk to, open about pretty much anything (except cheating), I can hold my own, I'm good in bed lol (might sound skanky but honestly we all know that it matters so hell...I'm good and I know it), the list goes on and they are all honest, true characteristics. Yet, you still feel the need to stray away from the goodness you had. Hmppphhhh...I just don't understand?!
Thanks for letting me vent...but back to the complexities of my mind. After I found out, I was left with nothing to hold on to because as you remember my guard was down and somewhere chilling with my feet...nowhere near my heart where it should have been. You know how your mind and heart feel different things...I struggle with that everyday. It should be an illness honestly...so for my heart's stupid actions, my mind has to teach it a lesson. So I feel the need to accurately depict every action, thought, interruption with my phone calls and texts to know what he did that entire summer. Fucked up isn't it? Now I have these vivid accounts of sex in the back of the car, and "caking" put in to fuck these bitches. Like really tho? BETRAYAL to the fullest.
I want to say whatever but we all know that would be a lie, I'll probably never get over it, but it's getting a little easier to deal with. I'm a fantasy thinker...like I honestly want a fairytale ending in life, and I found it with him. I probably could have still had it had I stayed with him. But, when I perceived it in the beginning it didn't involve him cheating on me, so I couldn't stay.
I must say that although I'm hurt and all that stuff...I don't hold guys accountable for past people's faults...GREAT...anymore cause I don't feed into the hype that all men are dogs; they really aren't. They just have fucked up control issues lol. If they get that in tact women and men would be at peace.

It Feels Good to be Here!!!

I'm home!!! Well, not exactly but I'm in Jersey at Vicky's in Princeton. After a 13 hour drive we reached her hizouse yay!!! I must say this was an exciting road trip. I have to first start by admitting I have the worst geographical skills in the world. I excel at giving and taking directions, remebering how to get places (by landmarks) but don't ask me where a place is in relation to somewhere else. You will think I'm stupid in all aspects of life. Not good!!! So anyway to get home from the A, I don't take the traditional I-95. By taking a series of other highways, I take about an hour to reach the Field. WESTFIELD!!! But, since Vicki lived in Princeton it threw us a little out of the way. Haha!!! But, it was cool we can read maps and stuff (shoutout to Jade lol) so we got us a handy road map, and off we were...speeding down the highway. Onyx was on his shit...I pulled 115 for the first time, thank you very much.
But, yeah the road trip was superb, we even stopped to eat at Golden Corral...SUCCESS...and to top it off..guess what?! They had cheddar biscuits. What the f*$#!!! Yes, and they were on Red Lobster's status. I almost fell out my chair. But, let me point out that Vicky and I noticed that we looked really out of place in Virginia. It was like we were in a time warp that had us stuck in 1995 because everyone looked real bland and stuff. We were in there with our skinny's and Spelman attire (representing) with our slouchy boots thanks to Macy's and we were getting weird looks despite the farmish attire surrounding us. But nonetheless, I'll take the food, not the clothes and keep it moving. Great!!!!
So yeah I'm here...about to surprise my mommy and go home early. It's going to be great. Don't you just love when you come home and everyone misses you and you're a star for about a day lol. Good stuff...at least in my eyes...you know I'm spoiled. But, more to come later...shower time!!!

Katt...No!!!

I absolutely love Katt Williams. Like that nigga really is the shiiitt!! I love to laugh...and he has always made me do that. I realize people retire eventually...but got damn how do you retire from being funny? I just don't get it... =( Katt don't leave...not right now anyway...let me graduate first!!!

A Perfect Imperfection

I've realized this past week...finals week by the way...that I am a really indecisive person when it comes to guys. Like I really am, and I started my self-evaluation by admitting my problem. I have this really weird complex with "liking" someone, and "liking the idea" of someone. I've had a lot of run ins with guys this semester, and I thought I liked them...but soon realized that I only like the "idea" of them. Simply, put there nice guys, wonderful characteristics, we look good together and all of that good stuff, but I don't actually like them. I just like the idea of us together. Sad isn't it? I told you before I'm the most complicate dhonest young lady you would ever meet. So, after pondering for many hours, days, whatever I realized I lonly actually like 2 people. All the others, well, they're cute and all but nothing could ever be.
One person in particular I'm actually really glad I don't like him...I don't have to deal with the drama that surrounds him. Wonderful!!! De-dramatizing Jasmine's life always wonderful in my book!!!
I'm spending my last couple of hours in the A...but I'm eager to leave and get to spend some much needed time with one of the 2 that I actually like. As for the other one, Georgia shall be on my mind nonetheless. I really am a perfect imperfection!!! Gotta love it!!!

Don't You Hate Iit When....

One of my biggest pet peeves in the world is when you politely inform a dude your not interested...politely mind you...and he doesn't get the picture. I HATE IT!!! With an almighty passion. Like my blood starts to boil, and it gets really hot all of a sudden. I can feel my blood pressure rising (not a good look by the way) and then I go off. Honestly, I 'm a really sweet girl, I really am, but it's always that one dude that makes Jasmine act really hood. Why should I have to threaten to bust your shit open when I told you to stop before. But, they just don't understand...and I shall have to keep my hood mentality on stand-by...

As I'm writing this he has finally fallen into a drunken slumber and my friends are playing tricks on him...priceless got to love it!!! =)

In My Zone

Dancing. I love it. I really do. It's such an exhilarating feeling to be on the floor and let the music take you away. I might look pretty scandalous on the floor, but honestly, it's like a drug for me. Give me a little drank lol, and when my song comes on I just go. I start of with this little rock or sway if you will. It's real slow, kinda hood honestly lol, but that's how I start.

My friends and I were in the car today talking about this weekend, and they always hate on me about the way I dance. Due to the fact that I am not a hoe, a whore, or any of those other horrible words, I can openly admit that I dance pretty sexually. I've realized that because we listen to reggae up north my dancing reflects it, but when I come down here in the A I look a bit oversexed. I can deal with it...why...cause I have fun. I don't believe in going to a party, and limiting myself. It just doesn't make sense to me. So I dance.

I'm writing this blog in pain actually because I was dancing the other night. I really go hard, to the point my muscles get tight lol. But, it's all for the good...because once again I'm Doing Me Regardless!!! Dancing is my zone...so don't interrupt just enjoy!!!

Heartless

Yeah, my life is pretty much overlydramatized to the point I just don't understand it sometimes. When I look at my life I have to sit and just laugh sometimes. Haha!! Otherwise, I'd probably go crazy. So, besides the other unexplainable events that unfolded this weekend lmao, this dude made an entrance into my life so abruptly he has pissed me off in 1,000 ways. So, now he is getting put on BLAST!!!! I won't release his name...but you know who you are. However, I will point out to any guys reading this...what I am about to inform you of don't do it if you ever want a chance of getting with a girl. A girl of substance for that matter...cause some girls probably would like the attention.

Firstly, don't send random messages on facebook. This is some honest stuff, even though I usually do reply to my messages but it is just because I am a nice person...if I am short with my answers and don't offer any chance to start another conversation, that is just my politeness...it means that I don't want to talk to you. So don't keep sending messages every other day. It's pretty annoying.

Secondly, if you see me at a party and I am working it on the dance floor, which I always do by the way lol, don't pull me away to have a conversation. I didn't come to the party to talk to anyone, let alone you, so leave me alone and let me do my thing on the dancefloor.

Thirdly, do not proceed to give me a lap dance if it looks like I'm not enjoying it. I'll be honest I laugh at inoportune times; lap dances is one of them. If I'm laughing that means I'm enjoying it I just laugh to make myself comfortable. However, if my lips are poked out and I have a stern look on my face, no I am not REALLY into it or something; I want you to remove your body from mine but your to heavy for me to get away so I just sit there and look disgusted.

Fourthly (is that a word lol), it is now, don't text my friend and have a conversation about some non-existent relationship we could possibly have. Not cool at all!!

So yeah, basically, don't judge me or be angry I'm a cool girl but I'm honest and some people can't handle it. My feelings come first, because I am the keeper of my own happiness. I can not rely on a guy to supply my happiness anymore, they can only add to it if they please. I'm content with myself, I'm confident in my self, and if I come off as a bitch I really do apologize, but the way I see it, I have a lot to offer, so I should be allowed to pick what I want. Wouldn't you agree?
For the mister, I am a very independent person and I thrive off of myself honestly. I love a lot because basically I am the only person that hasn't let me down. I am really scared of smuggling, it's like I can't breathe or something. My emotions have the ability to change drastically, I can love you one day, and by the next week I'm ready to be ALONE!!! Complicated I know, but I'm finding myself remember, it's on my header.

I know some people are reading this and are thinking about me in disgust. I really don't care. But thanks for reading. =)

Cameraless!!!

I shoud be studying for my 10:30 a.m. final tomorrow, but I haven't even cracked my book open yet. Damn!!! Sooner or later this my crazy life is going to crash...sounds really demeaning...but I mean I have to face the facts. I party every weekend...well mostly every weekend...and school only gets hard about 3 times out of the month. It's pretty nice for me, but it just doesn't make sense. But honestly, I'm a just ride this bitch till the wheels fall off cause I'm enjoying it for now. What I do not enjoy however is that I have been cameraless since homecoming. My facebook albums have come to a screeching halt and I'm going through withdrawal. I love pictures...I want memories of my life and I can't accomplish that goal with out my beloved camera. Oh!!! That is all I want for Christmas (and to pay off my Victoria's Secret credit card...it's fun to be an angel but damn they always come out with something that I feel I must have and then I swipe!!!) This is why I must succeed in life...I love to shop. Ughhh!!!! But back to my camera...I want one and I shall get it soon enough...and then you can see more of me...GREAT!!!

Goofy and Pluto

Last night was pretty eventful. After a day of sleeping and redying my hair...FINALLY...I was looking cute and ready to go. So I went to the Glee Club party. Do not laugh or snicker cause I'm giving that party an A in delivery and substance. I was oh so surprised of what went down. I was very skeptical at first, didn't think much was going to happen. But, by 1 a.m. it was already going down. Gay, straight, round, and square, everyone was getting it in. I had so much fun lol. Sweated (that's my word if you try me too; sweated lol) my hair out; Vicki's actually flat-ironing it as I type...good looks Vicki-Sec's =). But, anyway like I said I would do last week I was able to give her her Christmas gift early. Yay me!! But, oh did it backfire...like hell. To the fullest....lmao! Pluto and Goofy are characters...and a certain someone who will remain nameless is on our shit list...he'll never know who he is but oh damn you and your forgetful ass. It was actually very funny...but not while the events were unfolding. We both were caught off guard...and quite talkative on the ride home and also really glad that we are cool enough to laugh shit off and take the loss like women....GREAT!!!

But on a personal level, I realized I am a really cool girl. Pluto and I had a sleepover lol and I realized things could have gotten pretty ugly...but Pluto is just that cool and so am I so I couldn't let it go down like that.

DOING ME REGARDLESS!!! and enjoying every minute of it... I love college and all it's little quirks and crevices ♥

Can I Live

I discovered this guy about a month ago. I was driving to South Carolina to visit the padre and g-ma and I had SIRIUS on. (Ford hooked me up with that 6 month subscription; it's over now lol) But, anyway Eminem has his own station on their and on Tuesday's and Thursday's these two white girls have a show. There real quirky, freaky, open, and they seem cool as shit lol. I already dropped a note about that open business. DOING ME REGARDLESS!!! But, on that particular night Josh X-an-tus (weird a little lol; but unique nonetheless) was being interviewed. He's on Jadakiss's song let's ride if you want to hear a "popular" song. He was cool as shit, he's 22, doing his thing in the business, focused, no kids or anything, but he's a dog lol and he's not quite the looker. Actually, he may not be a dog, but their discussion was real raunchy and he was talking about his sex life, and his partners, and all his dirty stuff and how it inspired his new album "Can I Live". I was laughing the whole way down the road. So, I summed him up as a pretty interesting guy. He can play the piano (I likey), and he's and ok singer, but the lyrics make up for it haha. This is one of his songs "In Love With Two"; I don't know if it's the first single but whatev's enjoy!!!

A Breath of Fresh Air

I was flat ironing my hair today and decided to turn on MTV U. The only time I ever watched that channel was when I was downstairs in Clark's caf. Haven't been there in a MINUTE lol!!! But anywayz after hearing a hour worth of foreign white songs, this guy named Shad came on. I have never heard of him, nor heard his song. I liked it tho. A lot, it was simple, good message, no video girls, real nice. Like a breath of fresh air in all this booty meat that's on the radio lol. (This guy has been around for some time...haha I did my research just now!)

Froze

I am happy to say my addiction with Chris Brown is officially over. I mean I'll always have a thing for him, if we cross paths again I'll still be that cool, calm, and collected girl that I always am...oh but once he leaves that's when the little groupie will escape my containment lol. You have to keep it together when your out in public...no one likes all the screaming and stuff it gets you no where. But anyway I like this song. I see he's trying to venture out and be different. But honestly it just seems like Rihanna is seeping out of his pores. It has my approval nonetheless.

Yes We Will =)

Why do I love Michelle so much...like the way I get all excited when I see her is the same feeling I get when I used to see Chris Brown. (no homo lol)I think it's so funny when guys say that. But anyways, I love the Obama's...I secretly want their girls to go to Spelman. I think that would be a wonderful thing =). So I will be getting that copy of Essence as soon as it hits the stands. January is looking up...shit '09 really.

What I am looking forward to before I turn 20...
1) Essence magazine
2) NOTORIOUS!!! (and I have a free movie ticket haha)
3) The Blueprint 3
4) my new body lol =) we've taken off for a couple of days tho
5) paying off my credit card bill...Lenox mall makes me act retarded
6) a priceless night that will start of my Spring semester just like Fall semester
*Twelve Nights is all I will say lol*

Was it funny...or am I just tired...

So I was on World Star Hip Hop and I came across this video. It brought back memories of that damn video. Two girls one cup was the nastiest shit I have ever been exposed too. Like the nastiest...but this reaction video was priceless... =)

I'm Bored....

It's 4:33 in the morning, Wednesday morning to be exact, and what am I doing? Sitting in Club Woody! I took the longest nap today in my college history and now I am up and going. So I decided to write. I finished my homework a couple of hours ago so I won't have to feel insecure in my classes tomorrow cause I will be prepared. This a euphoric feeling...and I love it. I just wanted to express how I am supporting my friend Jasmine in helping her to stay up and finish a project that is due at 2 p.m. and her ass is laying on the couch next to me in this conference room...doing what? Sleeping! But regardless I am a friend, and friends support. (and I can't sleep so I might as well)
I've realized this was a pretty pointless post up until now...my friend Vicki just gave me something to talk about. She just told me what she wanted for Christmas...and it was funny!! All she wants is to sleep in a bed. (and this isn't just any bed) I think I might help her have her wish. Why you ask? Cause once again, I'm a friend and that is what friends do...and hey...I might just get something out of it as well. I think it would be a wonderful ending to a very eventful semester!!