Thursday, November 13, 2008
What's a Girl to Do?
So, being that I am all about honesty I'm going to speak about something that I've been thinking about a little. Although I'm not looking for a serious relationship right now, everyone wants friends lol. Someone to chill with, not just jump into bed with, a cool person point blank. So I've been running into a couple cool dudes, some I still speak to, others hmmmm not really. But, one of them has been around for a little while and I expressed my interest in him. Pluto did the same, or so I thought at the time. Now I don't know what the hell he was saying he was interested in. But anyways, time went on we stayed in touch, and we still keep in touch actually. On a friendship level though as I have come to realize. I came to this realization after I kind of played myself, and little ol' Jasmine hates to get played lol. But, I'm always upfront about things and pretty good with using my female intuition =) and I knew another girl was taking up that time. It was o.k. though because like I said before I'm not looking for a serious relationship, but I hate being surprised, and cut off without explanation. So, obviously I was a little t'd but I pretty much expect guys to fuck up so I didn't sweat it. But, the other day we were talking and pretty much getting advice about outside relationships and the conversation turned back to us after I learned a little about the intenseness about his new relationship. Pluto said he still wanted to keep in touch despite him being in a relationship. I'm not a homewrecker but I consented to continue to talk to him, but now I'm having second thoughts. I did in actuality express some feelings for him prior to the conversation, and he did as well. But, now I'm settling. Why does he get everything I want, and I don't. Jasmine doesn't settle, or do I, and what do I want lol? It made me think if I have been settling all my life, and if I have what the hell is wrong with me. On a serious note, I have no idea what the hell I'm going to do. Either way I don't want to lose a friendship soPluto and I will hopefully still maintain our friendship cause I think it's important for every girl to have a guy friend they can talk to about anything, and I still feel like I can have that relationship with him. It sucks to be a complicated chick sometime, but who wants to be around someone that's too easy to figure out? I wouldn't want that... =)
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